Day 1.

It’s the first day of the year. Already, things have gone wrong.

Happy New Year to:

Boyfriend:- I’m glad to know that you’re safe. I’m not glad to say I’m already disappointed in you on the first day of the year. I just wish sometimes you would think of me and how I would feel. I can’t believe you didn’t come home at all and that you couldn’t even tell me that you got drunk and passed out. You were the one that said you wanted to spend New Year’s with me and that’s how you wanted it, but instead I find out around five in the morning that you passed out. It’s nice to know that you wanted to spend time with at the beginning of the new year, but it sucks to know that you couldn’t even follow through with it. It makes me wonder if you really even wanted to spend the new year with me. I just figured, if you really wanted to be home with me, you would have came home. Instead of taking shots and shots over and over again to the point where you would pass out. I just figured, you would be able to control yourself since you made plans for us for when you came home. I sincerely hold you against this. I was so angry with you, but now I’m just more-so disappointed that you did this to me on New Year’s. I hope you had a great time. I hope you get home okay tomorrow, whenever that will be. And I hope you know I don’t plan on spending the rest of this year like the way it started.

My Girls:- It sucks that we’re not the same group as we used to be, but things change. I’m not as close to everyone as I used to be, but I’m glad to know we can still have little talks from here to there. I’m sorry I couldn’t go to Brandon’s place with Anny and Judy. I’m sorry I couldn’t go downtown or Town Square with you Minh-Anh. I’m glad though that I got a chance to talk to Amy. Thanks to Amy, I kind of got through my night. But to the rest of my girls, I hope you guys had a great start to the new year <3 (:

My Family:- I’m not really sure how we are at the moment. I don’t know if I’m ever going to move home, but with the rate it’s going with Gary, I might just. To my family, for pushing me, motivating me, and forming me into the woman I am today. Because of you guys, I’ve learned to work for myself, to take care of myself, to clean up after myself. But also, because of you guys, I’ve learned to never ask for help and to keep in my feelings. I wish every single one of you guys a Happy New Year, even if none of you will read it from tumblr.

To everyone else, I hope you guys had a fun and safe New Year. I hope you guys cherish everything you have with your family, friends, or significant other. I hope the new year gives everyone another chance to change and/or fix anything you wish to change and/or fix. And here’s to another year of a crazy ride.